I keep my days occupied doing laundry among other things

Haven't forgotten about me yet?
I certainly have not, and will admit that despite my guilty feelings regarding the absence of writing in my blog for quite some time the guilt was lingering but until this moment not acted upon. My fall quarter has thus come to an end and I feel quite accomplished. Aside from finals being over and overcoming a horrible 103 fever during finals week I also completed and submitted all my graduate school applications.
(HOLLAAAAAAAAA)

And let me tell you that I felt like a million bucks after sending them all in. Truly.
I am even more pleased to announce that University of Michigan has already sent out its invitation for me to audition live on their campus; of which was a nice early holiday gift.
Ironically, in now way do I celebrate Christmas i but will use these positive reinforcements as so.

I'm getting better at the whole life thing.
Would you like me to get more specific?
One can equate their lives with the amount of setbacks that are presented to them or equate with how they overcome those setbacks. A phone call with one of my best friends a few weeks back was a good reminder. She, who in now way has a big life issue/crisis/family dilemma was telling me how it is a lot easier for one to be sad than happy. Even for her it was difficult and we both agreed that to be happy despite whatever circumstance it takes an effort that sadness does not.
That got me thinking....
maybe all those people who are always happy, laughing, nonchalant, use real energy within themselves to be that way.
It is not because they own an i-phone or wear jimmy choos; but because they choose to be happy.
To nutshell this ideology I choose to try: (potential hallmark patent) life is like a lab room where you experiment without the goggles or gloves on, and despite the injuries we learn, we grow.

Today I had to purchase a foundation since I'm out. Now to set up this story I will begin from last night where I was surrounded by a lovely company of girlfriends of whom I love and cherish. Yet, at the end of the night I only could feel sorry for myself.
At one point the conversation veered to the latest pants, perfumes (multiple), blackberries, shmackberries, label this, label that ...oh lord I wanted to pull my hair.
Anyway, so today after choosing my foundation I was perusing through the perfumes of which I have wanted desperately since my one and only perfume ran out. I honestly wanted to purchase a 65 dollar perfume bottle out of pity, but realized that leaving the store with that bottle of DIOR would leave me more depressed than without.
Ok, so what, I don't have perfume. Guess what?
Some children in l.a. don't have parents, don't have food every night, don't have books to simply read.
I really shouldn't complain.
So I was happily satisfied with myself when I left the store, with foundation (dude that stuffs just necessary) not allowing my emotions to get the best of me.
So for the time being I will be perfume-less until I feel like my bank account won't hate me if I do purchase something.

Long story short, there are a lot of things in life we want: but at this point in my life I'm going to have to limit that list. To be quite honest, it's OK.
As long as I have health, music and my family and friends I will have to be tolerant.
I will have setbacks, I can get upset, but in the end I am my investment. Me, not the 'things' I own.
My goal?
No self pity. Nada. I will nod my head and smile and not be influenced by the fortune of others. I will be happy for them.
And I will be even happier that my heart won't sulk in its sorrow.

whoooooooooo.
so much for a 'blog'.

Now I'm going to go fold laundry.
and for right now, that's A-ok.